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Just a touch... :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 1 0 Winter's end. :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 3 1 Do not summon them. :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 1 1 Can you hear them? :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 0 Reunion :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 0 Good Morning :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 1 2 Smile :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 2 An evening without pain. :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 3 Late night.. :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 0 Very happy :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 1 0 Fluffy :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 2 Hm? Something to say? :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 0 Oh, hello there. :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 0 1 Playful Seduction :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 3 7 Sweet little creatures you are.... :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 1 1 Come now dear, say what you feel. :icontsuki-no-nai-yoru:Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru 1 6

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Guqin Sona :iconclaparo-sans:Claparo-Sans 1,291 28 Angelus :iconkingkostas:kingkostas 59 9 Agony :iconvickyinu:VickyInu 123 28 Angel Of Torment :iconjuntacu:Juntacu 42 5 Arafel 2016 :iconsanekyle:SaneKyle 158 23 Fallen Angel :iconandrewdoris:AndrewDoris 52 6 Zayel and Darius :iconnikolayasparuhov:NikolayAsparuhov 178 7 Righteousness :iconmarkothesketchguy:MarkoTheSketchGuy 135 5 God Complex :iconcosmoskitty:CosmosKitty 88 7 Swans sorrrow :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 9,706 188 Elf :iconchirun:chirun 1,305 0 Calcium 8th anniversary :icondeino3330:Deino3330 721 38 SMITE Bastet Star Tamer :iconscebiqu:Scebiqu 810 25 The Peacock Prince. :iconnaznemati:NazNemati 272 25 In the power of Chaos :iconkimir-ra:Kimir-Ra 139 4 so i'll be drawing aquaman :iconnebezial:nebezial 2,441 204
I have alot of favorites on this site...only I cant seems to remember their names. >.<

Being a n00b sucks major A$$.

Sorry for the curse...don't really know if you're allowed to swear on this site. lol

Journal History

  • Listening to: The sound of my fingers tapping the keys computer.
  • Reading: Things on tumblr
  • Watching: How I Met Your Mother
  • Playing: With Story Ideas
  • Eating: Chips.
  • Drinking: DrPepper
Being unable to sleep due to stress, getting everything ready for a puppy and trying to deal with the fact that I am having urges to self harm. It's not easy, everything is bearing down on me and I don't always have the strongest will in the universe.

Which is why I am happy that I have someone here to keep me grounded.
David and I got back together, everything that's happened over the course of a few weeks has helped me see I was running from everything good. What can help me.

We're both trying to work through our problems. He's growing as a person and helping me with my problems. Even going so far as to delve into my interests. Which is nice.

Sometimes we have disagreements, but we don't argue like we used to. We communicate like adults. Which is good. He wants us to be open, hide nothing from each other.

Due to my mental issues, he gets nervous leaving me alone. He doesn't want to come home and see my wrists slashed up. He cares, which is why he hooked a web cam up to his laptop and keeps it on during the day. Sounds creepy, but it gives me comfort and he doesn't like knowing I might slip up.

Even his Mother checks in on me, just to make sure I'm alright.
I was able to get my Kunai and the knife he gave me for Yule back. He can trust me with sharp objects again. He's wary, but understandably so. Relapsing wouldn't be good for me.

But I'm stronger than before. I know some people don't like...Onision. But one of his videos gave me a little push to quit cutting. I know some people do it as a release...but I can't do it anymore. What if I slip up and cut a tendon or make it so I don't have the use of one of my arms...
I wouldn't want to live knowing I can't write.

I haven't cut in weeks, which is a good thing. It's not good to go back to bad habits. So much has happened to show me that life is worth living. Hard as it can be, I have to keep pushing towards my goals.

However, earlier in the week something happened that made me snap. As it was, I was on rocky ground due to me missing a dose of my medication.
My little sister was getting ready to move back up north. She wanted to go up there and be with family. Better environment to raise her son. Which I don't think was a bad idea. But she left...without telling me. She has all my contact information. Facebook, phone number...and she knows where I live.

But I didn't get a damn thing. I find out on facebook...that she's already left. Which hurt like hell. I didn't get to say goodbye to my nephew or her. However, what added to the already ache...was my own Mother's harsh words...

"You are the hope of the family. I love you so much. I've always had high hopes for you. I am so proud of you. I love you, Ruby. Be safe!"
....Basically on a status...she trashed my me and my other sister Michelle. I sat there at 2 in the morning, staring at those words. I didn't cry...I mean, how could I?

I felt numb. It was the final straw. She'd always had issues with me...but to openly say something like that on facebook...where everyone could read it...

I cut ties with her and my sisters.

David's proven to be more family than anyone. He's my rock. Always here to help me. Even going so far as to hold me while I cry. That's more than I can ever say for my Mother.

Thanks Mom...really nice to know how you feel. Glad that was the last thing you ever said. Considering I was the one that held you while you cried...after the power in our house was cut off because your druggy boyfriend stole the rent to go buy crack.

But yeah...I'm the Black Sheep of the family.

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Nickolas ( Nicobu )
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There isn't really much to tell about myself...

I like evil stuff but that doesn't mean I'm gonna go kill and goat and summon Satan.

It means I like Gothic stuff...wearing black, listening to Pantera and ignoring the teeming masses as long as I can before I have to deal with lifes little indignities.

I'm a very pleasent person by nature...but everyone has their dark years and I'm assuming that these are mine.

I'll be friends with anyone...just for the love of god...please...no more...physco chibi's!

I can take getting glomped once a month...hell...once a year would be nice...but my poor brain cants take the onslaught of weird chibi attacks.

>.<

I fear I may overload.

LoL

Anyways...add me if you wish...but I cant drawn worth a shit...but I am a decent enough writer though.

Comments are always nice. :3

Current Residence: Clearwater, Florida
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Medium
Favourite genre of music: Heavy Metal or Techno
Favourite photographer: Myself
Favourite style of art: Gothic
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch
Shell of choice: ???
Wallpaper of choice: Dante and Vergil...duh
Skin of choice: Yours...hanging on my wall.
Favourite cartoon character: Alucardo and Seras.
Personal Quote: Personally...I think you're full of shit. But hey...thats just me.
Interests

Commissions

Mirrored Soul
Random pictures of me or anyone in a mirror. One side showing who they think you are an the other who you truly are.

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Fxrbidden Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
thanks for the fave!
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maxlake2 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
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Happy Birthday, dear!!! :airborne:
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itsmyccrets Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy Birthday Nicobu!!!
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Miss-Pannacotta Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the fav!GIF Gravity Falls - Celestabellebethabelle 
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HowManyDragons Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2016
Thanks for +faving my dragon sculpture! There are many more handmade dragon figurines in my gallery, if you'd like to take a look. :) (Smile)
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theresahelmer Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2016  Professional Photographer
Thanks for the watch 
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JCSolis01 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for faving my work! It really means a lot. :D
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AshleysCanvas Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2016   Digital Artist
Hi Nicobu!!

I just wanted to thank you for adding my Inuyasha paintings to your :+fav: !!

To Feel the Wind by AshleysCanvas  Movie Night by AshleysCanvas   

Feel free to stop by and take a look at my gallery!  I have a bunch of other Inuyasha fanarts up there too!  Happy new year!
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Tsuki-No-Nai-Yoru Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2016  Student Writer
Your art is stunning! 

I love seeing it. I'll check out more of your gallery! 
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